Dream Or Reality

Sometimes when even the lowest volume echoes
Sometimes when I feel the rain coming down
Sometimes when I roll over and clutch the empty air
Sometimes when even after trying- the tears don't stop
Sometimes when even after crying there's pain left
Sometimes when I see people with the ones they love
Sometimes on days like this

I'm reminded that I'm not invincible
I'm reminded of the hurt I didn't let go
I'm reminded of the time we spent together
I'm reminded of YOU

Watching you walk away wasn't easy
Hearing you say you don't love me wasn't either
But I wonder if you saw the tears in my eyes
Or the love behind them
I wonder if we're apart, because of something that I did
Or the things that you didn't
I wonder if you think of me still
Or whether you ever did.

Letting You Go

You always said if you love something, set it free
If it loves you, it will come back
I set you free without you even realising it
I cut my throat the same day I helped you and her

I don't know if that worked out
But I know it hurt a lot
I know it took a lot of courage to tell her about your love
That love was supposed to be for me
Only it wasn't
I told the world, You were a joke
A desperate attempt
A bad hangover
And only I knew you weren't, aren't and maybe never will be

I know that I've always loved you
And at this moment feels like I always will

I let you go, maybe you never were mine...

All those late night calls
When you spoke about her, felt like I had tasted poison
Like someone stabbed me in the back
Felt like salt on open wound
But I know it wasn't your fault
My unspoken love for you is hard to hide....
but not impossible
Unlike the never ending pain I go through.

I Tried With All My Strength

When I asked you,whether it was true
You told me it was
That day was the toughest
I cries but I survived

When you asked me whether i would help
I said I would
That day was the scariest
I hurt but I survived

When she told me it was true
I told you the same
That day was the happiest
But it wasn't meant to last

When she returned, back to you
I felt wronged
That day was the longest
I was confused, but I survived

When she finally said no
I was torn between her and you
That day was the hardest
I juggled and I survived

But now I'm scarred again
Scared she might feel the same way again
Scared you might never let someone love you
Scared to lose two priceless friends
Scared I might never be able to move on.